Sunday, June 25, 2006
6:19 AM
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I'm seriously getting lazier. Its not that I like being lazy but I just cant help it. I seriously need help. I need someone to pressurize me, push me and slap me. But whats important, i need a slap. To wake me up.
Why am I like this? Someone please help me. I dont want come back to school, watch tv, not doing my revision and not doing my homeworks properly everyday. I want to be different. I'm learning something new now and I hope by 3 months, I can really be an expert at it. I want to learn something else. I want to make full use of my time and all.
I dont want to play any longer. I want to buck up but its tough. I tried telling myself but Im too sturbborn and Im too LAZY. The word is lazy.
If I continue being lazy and not revising or practising, I wont be able to compete those smarty people. I dont want to make my parents sad. I want to change. But how?!
I feel like a useless, lazy girl.
Tomorrow school reopens and tomorrow I'll be getting my gold badge. Wish me luck up the stage! Its my first time, I think.
I want to start a new life. Where everything should be almost perfect.
I want to be smart and outspoken.
I want............
Can someone please slap me???
Aite, Im outta here.
Dada!