Thursday, February 02, 2006
9:53 PM
ã Have I? Have I not? ã
Have I? Have I not?
Its such a bad day. It started of bad and ended up bad too. But what can I do? In the morning when I wanted to alight, the bus driver just won't open the door. I'm so pissed off. Secondly, I forgot to bring my storybook. Thirdly, my class duty. I can't stand the class any longer. They are too much. Those guys are so bullheaded. I never wanted to shout at them but i guess this is it. I've gave them alot of chances. I told them to line up properly. They just wouldn't listen. That brings me to something. Councillor. I took off my pin and put it in my bag cause I'm tired. I'm tired of being one. Haiis. What have the world come to? =(
My class seems to be outta control . Some have nothing better to do. Some got worse. I dont feel the class-spirit that we used to have. I dont feel like we are united anymore. And,......... HAVE i changed???
Friends. School. er.
To put in shorter term. EVERYTHING is getting worser. MY life!!!!!
I wonder till when can I take this. My temper seems to be very short nowadays. I get piss off easily and always assuming things.
When can i find someone who really truly understand my past life? The life that i used to have are so much different then this. I know that everything is going to change when i grow up older. Maybe this is just a small test. And I cant take it. What if there's a bigger one in my future? Can i take it? No one can understand my life except for one person. And I know there's no way that person gonna be there for me. Its been ages eversince we last talked.
I'm lost as usual. When can i find my true self? I feel like as if I'm still in my dream. I cant wake up. Because waking up has the same meaning as facing the world of reality. And I cant. I'm not totally prepared to face everything. I dont want to be anyone else. I just want to be me. Real me.
Have I chose the right school?..................................................................... Or have I not?