Tuesday, November 08, 2005
4:00 PM
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it's 2.15pm right now. and i just came back from hanging out with Azu. well not really just but an hour ago, maybe. yeah, we had a great time together. then, i went to my appointment. some kind of apointment. i just received a email from my class chairperson. its about my form teacher wanting us to read 16 story books which is about all the subjects except from math. do a summary! i mean like. don't he have anything better to do. gosh, guess i have no other choice but to do it. like i said life has been the same. nothing to talk about it.
class gathering, next week. i don't know what to wear or bring. but how could i wish i can go back late. well. i can't because no one is going to pick me up. the last time i went and reached home at about 10pm, urgh. it was a bad one. lols. so if i want to go home late this time, i have to go home alone. can't decide yet. i wonder how's the class gathering will be?, who will be presence there?, what is going to happen there?, whether i like it or not? haiis. its not like i hate it but, y0u never understand how i feel about me being in my class. if you know what i mean. i feel so weird and funny being in my class. so, what i wanted to do for next year. study. that's all everyone wants. they want me to study hard, and get good results. but when i get, i mean get better class position, they are still not happy. well, even though they didn't say. i know that they think i have done badly. i couldn't argue with that because i guess its true. i've done badly for my Math and other subjects. even though i pass. i could have done better. yeah, i know, no point crying over spilled milk huh? haiis. those people all around me, i don't know. my family, well, i don't think i can say it out here. friends, they are nice people but sometimes. they hurt me too. especially those who i really think they are my friend, when they hurt me, it's not a nice feeling and i hate them. i mean, you call this FRIEND? im not actually that mean. i'll get over it and then we are friends back. even though i have a real close aunty to share my probs with, she's not living near me but in Jurong. i know i can call her but izzit it better if we can talk face to face? people are looking down on me because i'm shy. especially a girl who thinks she's perfect. But she's not. well, even though she looks like one. that was just the outer part of her. you have not seen her inner part. she can be as mean when she hates you. im not talking about anyone i know in school. so, if anyone thinks its you whom im talking about. thats so not my problem. look. i try to be nice. but sometimes. those people don't appreciate your kindness and take advantage of you. that's where i can't stand it. im not really popular/famous in school because i dont really hang around with those people. all i know is, i go to school and then home. or sometimes hang out with my classmates. and to that person who said im extra. im not ok? its been me all along! i never tried to be extra or something. AND! its a good thing that i picked up the courage and stand infront of the class! its something which i dont really do. why dont you mind your own probs and heck care mine alright? im glad if you do so. and dont call people names anyhow! urm, sorry because im not actually that mad at that person now because it happened like a month ago. teachers are always teachers.
what happened today was really weird and sort of fun. i cant really type out all about what happened because my brother want to use the computer later. so to shorten it, we met an old lady whose suffering from some sort of illness. she wanted help and wont let us go. we had to follow her everywhere she go. about an hour of something? lastly, after someone who is willing to take her, we can go at last. i wonder what happened to her now. she was like showing all sorts of things. and stories. i kinda pity her. heh. right azu? lols.
tomorrow i'll be going out with my primary friends. Jln raye. so impatient here. heh. im like spose to go out with my sec frenz today but cant. i have an important appointment to go. i guess i miss the good times they have spent today. lols. on thurz, watch movie with azu and frenz. on 21th, go somewhere with azu and frenz again. love hanging out with them. they are friends who really laugh alot. hehe. Azu especially. agree azurah? hehe.
yeah. now i know how i feel. i feel that poeple dont accept me for what i am now. poeple nowadays judge books by its cover. not all poeple but some. i dont get it.
i think my form cher now will be our form cher next year. seriously, i donte know how we going survive with him. i cant breath properly whenever the next lesson is his lesson. i always get stomach cramps. and i hate it. coz its not nice. i'll be gasping for oxygen everytime. i donte know why. his like something scary and terrifying. you never know what his gonna do with you. what the conversation with him will be like. dont be suprise if you cry after talking to him. his words are harsh. but his nice. alhtough his words are harsh, its good for you. getting him as a form cher, is the best thing in someway.
alright people. i have to go now. do tag my blog aite? thannky euu.