Friday, September 30, 2005
8:28 PM
ã WTH ã
Hey.. kinda free rite now so decided to update..
first of all my dae.. it wuz nortt OK.. the eng papers.. wuz kinda olrite to miee.. then after sch..
i went to Bholee;s house to wait for her to change her clothes.. she wana go cozway wit me u c.. so azu wuz going to.. and we ate.. go library then Bholee saw 'Rusyhdiah' (dun noe whether correct speling or not) so she went with her..
azurah came to my house and we had fun. firstly we played wit the rain.. cooll.. then i rebonded azu's hair... make up her.. thats all then she went home.. she's pwetty.. a pity that i didnt took a picture of her..
then my results.. and my form cher
well.. obviously, im kinda sad that i dropped.. i never expected that tho`..
but since its over, its over rite?
what else do ya expect?!
i cant possibily turn back the time?!?!
do u think i wana this to happened?!?!
ITS SO NO OKIE?!?!?!?!
I DUN WANT TO.. BUT IM NORRT ANYTHING.. I CANT PREDICT THE FUTURE.
like u c..
if we study HARD
but then we end up
didnt really hav gud marks..
wharrt im trying to say is that..
we juz cant do anything..
i noe i didnt do really well for the 2nd semester mr neo..
and i noe its my fault for this..
after the june holidays
infact during the june holidays im starting to get lazier
i hav to admit..
and i didnt really concentrate during lesson..
be it bcoz of HIM
or i dun care about studies..
its really BULLSHIT U NOE..
its damn fucking..
NOw..
Ms Lee said i did quite well for the math test..
u dun noe how happy i wuz mr neo!!
and wen i said i cant concentrate...
the reasons
is juz
i cant ok..
if u really wana noe the reason
if u desprately wan to noe
FINE
IM LAZY!!!!
SATISFIED WITH MY ANSWER?!!?!
i didnt mean to say all this thing..
and i noe that im juz a student while u are a teacher..
wtv i wrote above..
i dun really mean it..
u said that u hav a feeling that im gonna drop again
so BE it..
I DUN NOE k?
all im doing now is
studying for my EOY exams..
i dun care anything or wtv ppl say..
to HIM...
where were you when i nid u most?!?!?!?
u dun noe how my life is now..
u dun evn care!!
why muz uu b so nice to me when THIS IS going to happen??!!?
u dun evn bother to look at me..
u dun evn bother to say anything to me..
wen im feeling nervous,
u dun evn hav the COUrage to tok to me insteaad u ask sumbody else to tok to me!!!!!?!?!
and wen i decided norrt to tok to uu anymore,
u said i dun wan to c u again..
HUH?
u said im scare to c u again..
look ppl up and down and say i grow fast!!
WTH?!?!!
juz shut up aite??
all bcoz of uu,,,
im lyk this!!!!!!!!!!
get out aite!??!!?!?!
juz get out of my lifE!!!
a person lyk UU dun deserve
to b in my life!!
Fuck off!!
( to HIM.. sorry to say all this things.. i dun blame u nimore..
i juz wan to let u noe how i felt.. )
Mr Neo wat do u expect frm me?
TO ALL PPL THAT I HAV MENTION IN THIS ENTRY...
I MEANT NO OFFENCE
I DIDNT MEAN WHAT I SAID..
SORRY MILLIONS TIMES....
DUN GET SAD,,
OR ANGRY I SPOSE..